I’m sorry, I haven’t updated in a while. I haven’t visited your sites too.

It’s because my grandmother died last Saturday and I’ve been staying in Loyola Chapels in Guadalupe to be with my Lola and other relatives too. Interment will be tomorrow, 11AM at the Manila Memorial Park in Parañaque.

I can’t believe it, really. I still can’t accept the fact that she’s gone, the woman who carried me and held my hand all through out my childhood. When she had a re-touch of make up last Tuesday (she had to because her make up was already fading), I touched her hand, caressed her head. She was hard as cement. And even then, I still could not bring myself to believe that she can’t be with us anymore. It’s like at the back of my head, I know that when I wake up, she would still be here with us and laugh with us. She would still crave for Mentos. She would call me her favorite grandchild over and over again.

I had a dream about her last night. I was telling her that the thought of her being dead is just a dream, and the reality is that she is still alive. I touched her skin, and it was still soft and warm like it used to be. She was alive. And she will always be alive in my memory.

Hiatus.

Yes, I’m still alive.

I’ve been sooo busy for the past days that when I go online, I only get to check my e-mail, multiply and friendster accounts. I’ve been out a lot lately for my driving lessons, for my future plans which I ought not to talk about here, and for my debut. The last two weeks were crazyyy, I wasn’t able to spend a day inside our house! So today is my first day (after two weeks) that I get to rest and bum my arse out.

Speaking of my debut, it was FUN FUN FUN! But very tiring too. I uploaded some of the pictures in my multiply account, so view it if you want. THANKS to those who greeted me and to those who gave me gifts! I really really appreciate them!

So, how does it feel to be eighteen? Well, I must say it is very much like seventeen, but with more expectations from other people. I really cannot say yet how it is because so far, I’ve been 18 years old for three days only. Hahaha. But the thought of being eighteen years old gives me this feeling that the world is bigger for me now, and I am yet to discover it! I’m excited and I’m starting to crave for things that I didn’t have when I was seventeen, things that are only meant for eighteen-year-old people and older. Haha!

To start off my eighteenth year, I’ll watch DVDs! HAHAHA. Jeez, is that “eighteen-ish” enough? HAHA. Well, does it really need some planning or something like that? I don’t know. I guess I’ll just go with the flow. I won’t really care if my actions are not “eighteen-ish” enough. :))